The last five months of my life can be defined by one word: waiting. First I was waiting to get pregnant, then I was waiting for ultrasounds to confirm that Baby is developing as expected, then I was waiting to save enough money to start looking for a house, and now I am waiting for the right house to be listed on the market. I spend hours each day waiting to feel Baby kick, praying that Baby stays healthy, worrying about whether or not I’ll be able to have a natural birth, and wondering what it will be like when Baby and I meet face to face. Will I be a good Mom? How will Baby affect my marriage? Where will Baby sleep if Micah and I haven’t found a house yet? How will Presley and Baby get along? The list goes on and on.
As a Type A, control-freak, waiting can be stressful. I don’t mind waiting if I can put forth effort during the process to work towards a tangible goal. Examples include training for a race or paying off debt. I loathe waiting when the effort is out of my hands and I am forced to trust in God’s timing and plan. And yes, talking about God’s timing and plan seems really dorky to me since people throw around sentiments of the sort so frequently. Truly, though, the Bible tells me to wait on the Lord, to trust in the Lord, and to hope in the Lord.
“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” (Psalm 27:14)
“We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield.” (Psalm 33:20)
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:31)
Why should I wait on the Lord? Because He is my help and shield. Why should I trust in the Lord? Because He will make my paths straight. Why should I hope in the Lord? Because He will renew my strength. Indeed, renewal is what I need. Waiting should not warp into worrying. In fact, when I remember that God is in control, it is impossible to worry. Do I think that everything will turn out as I plan? Absolutely not. What a sad life it would be if God was confined to my often ridiculous and self-centered expectations. When I wait on Him, though, He transforms my heart. He leads me in directions I wouldn’t often seek for myself, and there is peace when I’ve reached the end of the path because He is there, waiting for me, confirming all along the way that He’s been in control and been watching over me.
This morning in church the band played “Great Is Thy Faithfulness.” The following words grabbed ahold of my heart, and I pray that I’ll remember them often in times of waiting: “All I have needed, Thy hand hath provided. Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me.”
Truly, great is Thy faithfulness.